Stress & Emotion....... :'(

So....you know those people who hold their emotions inside even though they really shouldn't? Well, I'm one of those people. I constantly hold back my feelings, and put them into my little "bubble". Well....finally my bubble is starting to pop. Slowly, but surely.

Lately, I have been under a lot of stress from school and stuff (like I said in my previous blog hehe) . I handle stress really, really well, but lately when i'm stressed i have started to lash out on people, which is something that I never do. Normally, I would control and suppress these emotions, but lately I can't control it! The harsh words come up my throat like vomit! I can't suppress them anymore. (it literally feels like vomit though! lol it like comes from my gut to my through my mouth lol how weird is that?!?!)

But its not like I go around yelling and cussing at people! Hell no! I'm too classy for that :D. There is something that triggers my word vomit. I can't quite put my finger on it but I think it is when people frustrate me, that is when the word vomit is ignited. And in this word vomit contains, yelling, harsh words, insults, curse words and whatever else is on my mind that, normally, I would never say.

After, the word vomit has finished I feel better, briefly, after a few minutes I start to think "OMG! Did I hurt their feelings?? I hope I didn't!" I hate to hurt peoples feelings but with the word vomit (lol that name...!) no one is safe.

All of this stress and emotion is taking a toll on my personality and aura! Normally, I'm a bright bubbly person but lately, I can barely crack a smile! I think even my sense of humor is being effected! I have become very serious! eeeewwww! I want my old self back!

I know that this won't last long but its really bothering me! I think until all of my emotions and frustrations are out, I will go back to the normal Jasmine that everyone knows and loves~ :D (at least I hope so lol)

Peace & Love!

Jasmine